Turkey Day

i am feeling much better this week. it is Friday and Friday is a glorious day!!! the weather is perfect, clear light blue sky, no clouds and breezy. Best of all....its cool. Here in the "dirty south" the months of November and December feel like heaven for we have had a firey HELL all year. Stressing about the next hurricane to come and destroy parts of your home, gone till JUNE! all we have to worry about now.......Christmas.

you ever notice how they skip Thanksgiving. Everything goes from Halloween-Christmas. Thanksgiving is my FAVORITE holiday. i get to eat all day long, because we always end up at 3-4 houses and have two days off. i LOVE it. i was really looking forward to this years Thanksgiving. Eddies twin boys were supposed to come stay with us for the week. they really don't get to spend any time with their dad cuss their mom lives about 4 hours away and neither have reliable enough cars to take the trip. we were going to rent a car, but it turned out to be so expensive. we had many last efforts, thinking of even....(gasp) taking the train.

but our plans fell thru.

all coming down to money.

i HATE that!

I think i was more excited over it then Eddie was. I cried when i realized it wasn't gonna happen. he said, "don't worry they will be here for Christmas."

just another situation, where i feel helpless. they are not my kids, i have no concrete relationship with them. yet i want to so bad, because they are my loves children.

i am over it for now, just praying they DO actually get to come see us for Christmas.

in other news.....

my best friend "'Kittie" is pregnant.

this would be a VERY wonderful thing under normal circumstances, but have you noticed things in my life are NEVER normal.

she was diagnosed with HIV a year and a half ago.

she has decided to have the baby. why? i couldn't tell you. i strongly disagree. her boyfriend is also HIV positive and there is no guarantee the baby won't be infected.

i do not have the energy to get into it right now, but i'll try to later on today.

SUPER DEBI!!!!!!!!!

i haven't been to work in three days. i would say its a lovely thing not to have to work for three days but im sick. sick and miserable! not really sure what it is but my nose is killing me. It won't make up its mind whether it is runny or stuffy.

im sure im like most people, i hate doing shit when im sick. It could be the simplest task and it seems like lifting an elephant. pleeeease don't ask me to do anything and please don't ask me for anything cuss you will def. see the bitchy side of me.

needless to say, if i don't do it, it won't get done. for instance....dishes?




still sitting there waiting to be washed.

laundry?



overflowing!

i won't even disgust you with the garbage can! (which by the way is Eddies chore anyway)

maybe the house wouldn't bother me so much if i didn't hear from my job 100 times in the past three days. they don't even think to themselves maybe she really doesn't feel well and we should prolly let her get her rest. i have already heard that i have many messages and notes on my desk for when i get back.

seems like the whole world stops functioning and is waiting until i feel better to continue. i asked Eddie today...(because he asked me to go to the store and i told him i didn't want to) what have you done while i have been sick?

his answer......"you didn't ask me to do anything"

ugh..

are you blind....can you not see????????

do you really think its nesassary for me to have to ask you to do the dishes when you can see for yourself that they need to be done? or maybe the fact that you don't have any clean clothes.....that could be a hint.

no no no i am waiting to do the dishes....i am having a contest with the neighbor to see who can have the smellest fucking house. i want you to stink from wearing dirty clothes.

i know men are hopless when it comes to these things and normally it wouldn't get to me as much...but being sick does it for me.

now if only i could harness that power and use it for good! ;]